I was looking out the window into the back yard, and I seen the leaves falling from the tree, wow it's so pretty. You can definitely tell it's the beginning of fall. Gorgeous. So my father wanted to come out to Massachusett, to visit family. He constantly is telling me, he thinks it's his time. I try to discourage him from those thoughts, and focus on the beauty at hand. I do a lot of pep talks and cheering up. He needs it. I know he's not in the best of health, and with losing my mother years ago, going through this isn't pleasant. I am trying to spend as much time with him as I can though. And because of that, it does, it has caused a strain in my relationship with Felix. Gosh I do love him, but sometimes I feel like I have to pick sides, and I don't want to, because hands down it would be my father. I'm sorry to say. I'm a lucky girl though, because Felix is understanding, considering he lost his father recently. Bless him for being so understanding. Thank you baby I love you.

So being here in Mass, I have been told the winters are very cold, and to dress appropriately. I am going to do what I can with what I have. I don't expect to take my father out as much as I have now, so we are going to hibernate so to speak lol. I wouldn't want him to fall, nor do I want to fall myself lol. But it would be nice to be able to go out and enjoy the snow with my father. It may or may not be his last, but I don't want to think of it in those terms. I want to know that he is with me for many years to come. I wanted to put a scarecrow out in front, but i can't see that happening. Taking care of my father, has changed a lot of things, prolonged my reunion with my boyfriend, looking for work as well. Many hardships, so money is more than tight. I really don't have any to really buy things, especially things like a scarecrow, holiday decorations, it's kind of sad if you think about it. I may go to a dollar store and get a thing or two, because I want to make it nice for my father. Festive surrounds its good for him. I know it seems like that I all I am talking about is my father, well gosh why not!! Speaking of my father I need to go. Happy Halloween, Happy Thanksgiving, Merry Christmas, and Happy New Year, in case I don't get back her on those occasions.

So the last layout was cute, but didn't look good in chrome, so I had to change it. Yeah this one is a bit dark but the design is lovely. I hope everyone likes it. and check out my new icon woohoo Edward is awesome! I love Twilight, books and films, and I can't wait for the new film to come out in November I am so excited. I am waiting for Twilight to be delivered I guess it was on back order :( But I still can't wait to get it yay!! Anyway it's late and I'm going to leave this for now. Happy Easter all! I love you Felix my baby, my husband, my lover, my everything, my world.

A non official trailer but yet a sneak peek.

It's been awhile. I went to England and Ireland, and now I am back in California. Time goes by fast, look at my last post lol. I don't know what to write as usual lol. I needed to change the layout, cos the other had broken links and I couldn't find the images and such so I said hell with it, so I scouted around for something, and I guess this will be temporary for now. I love Felix, I miss my baby. Now that I am back in the states, I am working at trying to sort out my problems/issues here in California, before actually joining him in Chicago. OMG it's so exciting, we are just about finally going to be together. After so many years and set backs. I know he probably thinks I am bad luck, haha, sometimes I think the same thing. Anyway I am off, going to see what else I can find lol.

I am so happy to finally be back in California. I didn't get a chance to post anything here, but finally got a chance. Somethings happening is strangely my gmail is showing my old time zone when someone gets the email I don't know, Felix said that he was online when he got my email and it said and 8 hour difference when we are only 2 hour difference, now I don't know if it's gmail or yahoo that's doing that. But the part that upsets me even more is his email to me. This is what it says.

"Jennifer, you said you're in California but why when you send your e-mails there's a 6 hour difference ahead of my time? If you were in California then I would be 2 hours ahead of your time. Yesterday morning I was online with yahoo messenger and I received your e-mail at 8:30 a.m. and I noticed the time difference and your mail said 14:30 and I know that is 2:30."

The part that upsets me isn't the content so much but the way he approached me, as if I'm LYING about where I am, now why would I lie about such a thing? The fact he didn't talk about nothing else in the email but that, and then whats more he didn't reply to my email when I emailed him back. Plus he is ignoring me so I told him I would be ignoring him as well. So I am NOT going to write him back until he does and I get an apology, he has been acting really weird lately, I think he may be cheating on me and thats why his attitude has changed towards me. Well if that's what he has been doing fine more power to him, and fuck him for not telling me. I've been faithful and I have had many opportunities to be with other guys, but did I do it NOOOOOO. Ok well that is the end of my rant. My time is up now, I got to go.

Omg I have great news, when I thought I was far from getting a PDA, I was so wrong, my gorgeous loving husband to be bought me a PDA the one I wanted OMG I am so happy and he threw in a little extra gift, the move Twin Towers, I was so happy. I started playing with my new toy. I was thinking I was going to get that pretty cell phone but the PDA kicks butt over it lol.

I got an email from Felix earlier today, and his father is not doing so good :( It sounds serious, I mean so serious that if they try surgery he may never come out of it alive, that is some serious stuff. I wish I was with my baby I'm sure he needs to be held, but you know I am holding him every night in my arms as if he was really here with me. It's never easy to imagine what a person goes through when something like what I said is told to them. Please if you read this, say a prayer for him and his family. I'm going to just let things go here, and post again later. I love you Felix, you are in my prayers and so is your family.

I needed a new one, the other one didn't look good on IE, this one does. I don't have much to put on the sidebar so it'll look bare for awhile. I've been looking around, and well my boyfriend Felix said that if he gets me a new phone, would it work in the USA, I believe it should if it has tri band, I think that's shat they call it, so it can be used anywhere in the world. I'll keep researching it, but if anyone knows about this, let me know. He would be sending it to me over here in Ireland, well not really Ireland, more like England, but still would I be able to use it? Or should I get a sim card phone, and then put my sim card into the new phone, or something like that? Anyone have a suggestion it would be awesome. I'm off to look around. I miss my baby, we miss each other now that I'm not in England. It was fun though talking to him almost every night, but we'll do it again soon. I love you Felix, muahhhhhhhhhh :)

Oh I got a Christmas Stocking, seen it at babythuggirl

( my xmas stocking )

I thought I saved this page already, but maybe I didn't hmm weird. Well it don't look like I'm going to get what I want for Christmas :( Maybe next year huh? I hate being poor lol. I got my birthday gift early though so that's really cool. I'm a big Friends fan and I got the whole collection, so I'm really excited about that. The PDA would of topped it all off, but I guess I'm not getting it, well I still believe in Santa Clause so anything can happen right? :)

I thought about a nice new cell phone, the one I got is so old hehe well not that old, but it don't have a camera on it, hell I'd even get a pay as you go, but I want one that I can take pictures with, cause I'm not always going to be carrying my digital camera with me, so it would be handy, and I was thinking of something pink, but not bright pink you know? I dunno, I got to look around and then come back and update, or add to my wishlist that is. I need to go check and see if Felix is online, we missed each other the last 2 days. I miss my baby, so much, but soon we'll be united forever.

So tonight I just finished watching "She's the man" what a cute move huh? I loved it! She is much cuter as a girl then a guy, she looked like her brother in the movie, good job at casting those parts lol. And Duke OMG he is so hot, and sweet and you don't find guys like that anymore you know? Then again I know it's just a movie. Lol. Ok I'm off to surf some.

Since it's going to take a little time to get this together, I will begin with one item and come back and update. I'll provide clickable images that lead to the websites



So here is the cell phone I like, I may not get this either but I'm still going to add it to my wish list, never had anyting beautiful and feminine like this.

I'm getting an early start on that, because it's not really celebrated here so I just wanted to send a Happy Turkey day to everyone that reads this, or those who just stumble across it.

After hours of waiting for my baby Felix to finally come online, I am finally chatting with him. I am so extremely excited because this is my last holidays I will be away from him, the new year brings a lot of good things, and they are all going to be spent with him.

So I haven't really told Felix what I want for my bday which is on the 16th of December, or for Christmas. I hope he makes it special. I was thinking of something pink lol like ps3 I've seen them in pink, or a new mobile phone. this is so amazing you got to look at it to know what I mean. But I don't think he will be able to afford it, not cause he don't want to but I think he is planning on buying his own ps3, so I guess I'll have to wait to play on his, I have thought about a PDA, I've wanted one for sometime. Well anyway I haven't really looked around or anything for the PDA, but I seen some at dell that look pretty nice.

I'm tired, I wish he would of come on earlier, but hey at least I got to spend a little time with my baby. I'm getting so excited for 2006 to end lol. I need a watch and perfume, I'm all out of perfume, and I never got a watch, oh I asked Felix if I can get the Friends box set, I want it soooooo much :) He is a true angel.

I was thinking today about something, that if Felix reads this I hope he don't get mad. Well we talk online and stuff, and I thought to myself, what if he is really the mean kind of man, like will hit me and stuff. I think about that sometimes, and it scares me. I know I'm probably just nervous and being paranoid, but I can't help it. I do love him though, very much, and can hardly wait to be his wife. I'm tired I got to go now.

I'm so excited, after so long not talking to my boyfriend on messenger finally we are talking on gmail chat, thank god for gmail :) I've been updating my journal. I have joined somethings, and wanted to post them here, but I tried in my bio but it didn't seem to take very much, and thought why not make one special entry just for them, and I did. Maybe later I may use the space I have on my friends domain, that use to be mine, we are kinda co owenrs :) I want to set up a fanlisting site, with all my joined fanlistings, I don't want to own any, just join them is all. But for now, this is going to be just fine. I'm so glad I am talking to Felix, I have missed chatting to him so very much. I'll be spending my last holidays away from him this year and that will be it forever :) I'll close here so I can go chat with him.

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It's been ages since I updated this. I haven't really had the internet, so I have neglected a lot of things, this being one of them. It even makes it hard for me to contact my boyfriend. I hope to be going back to the America in February, I will be spending the holidays here, I'm kind of glad I am though, because I don't know when I'll be abel to afford to return to visit my nana and the rest of my family. I'll miss them but I'm glad I got a chance to visit and be with them the time I did. Because after I leave my life will be with Felix. I know he misses me and I miss him too, very much so. Anyway I just wanted to quickly come here and update this since I don't get much of a chance, and I need to email Felix, I'm sure he is wondering what happened to me, although he is very understanding and and knows my situation. Ok well if I don't come back before the holidays are on us, then happy holdays to everyone.

It has been a long time since my last update. I've not been doing a whole lot. I went to visit family in Ireland, and then from there plan to go move in with Felix, actually England first then USA. Speaking of Felix, I emailed him on the 8th, and I have not heard from him since, and look what date is today? Thats right its the 26th, so whats going on? He's done this before. I wonder if something horrible happend, heck what if he was in an accident of some kind. :(

The weather has really been turned up out here, as one of my friends said to me not too long ago, it feels as if it is a summer in California, haha she is so right. We are even getting thunder wow! I found these two really nice Celtic crosses that I want so much, I hope Felix gets me them. Damn I wish he would email me already.

I changed the layout, I was going to put a plain one, then seen this and thought OMG how cute this is, and well I just switched it. LJ has changed a lot of things, but they are good, very good changes. I will write more later, still playing around with this.

So I left this entry at my website that my boyfriend didn't like because it made him look like an ass, this is what he had to say.

Felix : you made me look like an ass on your blog, im sure you think i deserved that

How accurate is that. So he said he no longer wants me to talk about thost type of things there, and that it is ok to talk about them here. So this is where you will see them.

As for that subject, I think guys do seem to be on the "horny" mode all the time. Sometimes I feel thats all they want, and to be honest I get sick of it, I mean what happend to being romantice and stuff? I still want that, to be said they like these little things, like I like the way you make me feel or your so beautiful, just simple little things would be enough for me, not just go straight into talking about sex. Oh well I do get use to it, but sometimes it gets to me and then I have a big old argument with Felix.

I love him very much, don't get me wrong, but I am entitled to being grouchy and sensitive about that. You dont have to agree with me, it's just how I feel.

So this layout is kind of cool. I don't like the font too much I may change that, and the background it just ugly hehe. I am going to change that too. But I definitely needed something different. My friend's brother just got some cute little chihuahua's they are so adorable, Emily suggested the names Daisy and Duke Omg they are so cute, I'll have to get a picture of them and show them off. Ok well I think I'll go and look for a background pattern to make this look nicer and more me :) Thanks for the comments, add me and I'll add you.

This won't be so long, I managed to find a layout that looked cute and allowed me to see everything, pretty simple but I like it. So now I guess I can link it on my website huh? I hope felix like it. I hope to be able to make my own soon.

I have not done an update at my website but plan on it this week. I have a few things I'd like to add. Omg the other day my friends cat pissed in my room OMG I got so angry then tonight I discover that the cat also took a piss in my closet omg that makes me mad too. I was ranting about it to Felix my boyfriend and he ordered me some stuff called "uring off" it's suppose to be real good to remove odor and stain, OMG I hope this works, they also send a like neon light type thing to see if its gone, I've seen the commercial on TV, so I am really hoping it works *keeps fingers crossed* my ass hurts I'm going to go watch a movie, Felix sent me a bunch of them, so I'm excited about that. Bye All!